It was a few years ago that our world shook and life changed. No matter how you viewed Covid, it swept in and dictated a new stance of fear, isolation, work, family and the list goes on. During that time something shook in me and my perspective changed on hiw I live life I misses alot of life moments; kids sports, family meals, time with friends, ministry and so much more. ai was buried in work so much so that I lost myself. Truth is.I lost more than that both physically and mentally. ![]()
Today, I am a new version of myself. I find myself still working probably more than I should? but not.at the expense of what is most important. These days l? I've made room on my calendar for people. relationships, time with my kids, family, friends. I look at my job a little different, instead of I have too, I get too. Don't get this story twisted as to I don't have needs or demands pressing at me because they are very present. I have desires that go far beyond my present situation, but as I wait, I wait with a joyful heart.
I admit I want somethings in mylife. Sometimes I let my imagination loose and I see things so different from this moment. This can be both powerful and weakening at the same time; an oxymoron of joyful despair. As I sit in that buried emotion, I welcome the peace that washea over me as ![]()
I lay all this down at the feet of Jesus...![]()
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:"you will fight my battles if I just be quiet:
I promise this time will be different!![]()
I have fallen, tripped and had the wounds to prove it more than once. This time, it will be different. ![]()
I am taking every part of the fall, before the fall, the wounds, the pain, the lessons and adding them all up. I want a different result this time and so there has to be an armor change.
There is alot of time that goes into putting on an event, but it's not the work it's the emotions that run alongside you as you plan. It is how you dig into hope and pour out your dreams for others to see...
As I took communion this morning with the simple elements of crackers and juice I thought about my faith walk and my journey to Christ. I thought about the idea of broken for better and I was struck with such imagery in those moments as a put the cracker to my lips and heard it breaking nto pieces for my benefit. Broken for me to be better.![]()
As I drank of the bitter juice I was reminded of the blood that was shed for me and gave me access to royalty.![]()
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Sometime ago over the course of my life I envisioned my blood to be a blue stream running through my body, healing flowing through it. In those days I thought it was a healing for me. I believed this so much that the first time I had blood drawn and saw red I was for a moment, dazed. (I won't go in to the science of this moment for several reasons but your welcome to study what I didn't know at that age about blood).![]()
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But today, I want you to know all of this came to light ✨️ today all these broken pieces, all this scattered insight, thoughts, trouble... were for me to better. For me to fall so in love with Jesus. For me to want more, trust more, hope more and for me to have double for my trouble.
Here I am behind again, atleast according to my scheduled plan to do a 52 week study. I have lost two weeks. That is until I opened the book and starting listening todaynand realized I had to go through everything I have been feeling, every moment of hurt, frustration, realization and more that I have felt the last two weeks. So much so that a year long wait of coffee time with a friend finally happened and of course words were exchanged. Words unexpected that poured love on my weary heart and soul. Words that were wrapped up and sealed in prayer. Words that filled my tank and reminded me when I fall, hurt, struggle, love, teach, share, give, take... God keeps me.![]()
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" "I will take hold of your hand" Isaiah 40-44
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